The Spirit of Rejection

I have only recently been introduced to the idea of how much influence the spiritual world exerts over the physical world.  So I have by no means figured out how it all works, but I have to admit, that viewing things from that perspective causes many things to make a lot more sense to me.  The particular aspect that was clearly illustrated to me this last month related to rejection.

I am someone who is not really afraid of rejection, at least in the traditional sense, but in certain aspects of life, I experience it to an inordinate degree, that has no logical explanation.  In looking back at how that issue has manifested itself in the past, I can identify three parameters that seem to hold true.

If there is such thing as a Spirit of Rejection, it has no influence over my career or professional life.  I would imagine that many people probably experience it in this way, but I am offered jobs all the time, and encounter little resistance in that aspect of life.  God has clearly blessed my endeavors in that regard.

Although I can see traces of the issue influencing every social relationship I have, it is only measurable and quantifiable in interactions I have with girls.  And while it is not limited to the context of dating, that is where it is most apparent.  (Possibly because that is an issue I have been focusing on.)

Lastly, and most significantly, it only affects steps that I initiate.  Now it is possible to look at that distinction from a logical perspective, and say: "of course not, people aren't going to reject ideas that they initiate," but its not that simple.  I have had the opportunity to see the exact same situations be repeated a second time with a different outcome.  The same people are involved, but the opposite person takes the first step, leading toward the same desired outcome.

This happened in the most obvious possible fashion last month, where I took a step that was totally reasonable by any rational standard, and was met with sudden, unexpected rejection.  I have never had someone accuse me of violating their personal space before, which I figure was a bit of an over-reaction.  Amusingly, a couple weeks later, the exact same thing happens in reverse, with no fanfare, because its a pretty normal thing to do.

For what purpose would spiritual resources be devoted to hindering only progress that I initiate in a relationship?  Well if it conditions me to always wait for the girl to move things forward, then it paralysis my role in the relationship.  Even if the relationship does eventually move forward on the girl's terms, that is not how God intended the genders to relate to one another.  Males are supposed to be the leaders, and so if the Spirit of Rejection can prevent me from doing that, then I guess it is an effective tool in that spiritual battle.

I am quite capable of taking actions that run a high risk of rejection, if I believe it is the right thing to do.  Regardless of that pattern, I am a strong and persistent individual, so I don't let it stop me from trying.  But it is extremely discouraging to observe that trend, and I am beginning to recognize how it affects my interactions with others at a subconscious level.  It definitely saps my confidence in certain contexts,  In my last post, I was asking what the difference between going out as friends and specifically dating is.  A long pattern of rejection in that sphere may be the only real difference.  I still take actions in that sphere, but I always fine them challenging and stressful.  The exact same actions outside of that sphere are no problem.