Entering a New Phase

As we enter a new year, I find myself transitioning into a new phase of life.  Being engaged is a relatively short phase, ideally leading to a very long phase, called being married.  And that will be a very big change in life, but one that I am looking forward to.  I am not sure what that will mean for this endeavor in particular, but it will probably mean some sort of change here as well.

I started this blog over three years ago, and I have grown and changed a lot in that period of time.  I have read a lot of books, met a lot of new people, and done a lot of writing.  328 posts later, I have never gone more than a week without publishing something new, although some posts were better than others.  Some of my best work was in the first few weeks, because I had so many ideas I had been storing in my head for so long.  It had taken me quite a while to finally take the step of actually creating a blog, because as usual, I wanted it to be perfect.  Once I finally came up with the theme and title I used, they provided me a wide field to fit the topics and ideas I wanted to explore.

The original intent of this blog was as a tool to help me learn to be more open as a person.  This characteristic was specifically desired because it was a prerequisite for closer relationships with others.  And one of the primary reasons I wanted to be able to build closer relationships with others, was because I was hoping to someday find a close enough relationship that it would lead to marriage.  I think that this project was successful in achieving what I set out to do, measured both by who I have become, and the situation I find myself in.

But what purpose does it now serve?  I am not entirely sure.  I still post every week, but primarily because I have been too OCD to just let it go after a three year run.  But being engaged, I have a new outlet with whom I can be even more open, and practice those skills in the real world instead of just online.  And now it isn't just my own life that I am sharing online, but "our" life.  And it is not necessarily my place to share that on my own.  And speaking of "on my own," I am very rarely on my own, with time by myself to write, or do anything else for that matter.  That has added to the challenge of creating useful posts on a weekly basis.  So it may be time to set this project aside for a while.  I don't intend to abandon it, but I don't intend to maintain the rate at which I have been posting up to this point.  It will be returned to whenever inspiration strikes, or when need for it has arisen again.  In the meantime, I will be preparing for a wedding, and a honeymoon, and then a life ahead.