It is interesting to observe the effect that stress has on our life and decisions. I make many decisions based on the motivation to avoid unnecessary stress when possible, but stress also affects our ability to make decisions. I moved this weekend, and I am not entirely sure why. The intent was to simplify life sooner, so that I wasn't spanning my life over so many different locations for so long. But the end result has probably greatly increased my stress, by moving into a residence that isn't completed yet, and won't be while I am traveling next week. So I am leaving for a trip with my "life" (at least in a physical sense) in complete disarray. That doesn't lead to a sense of peace and focus as I head down to work.
Ironically I also feel stressed about not having been "working" in so long, since I have been too busy finishing my house to head down to LA for the last two months. But that is just missing the larger picture, which is that the whole reason for working at a paying job is to afford a place to live and such. That expense is made cheaper by all of the time I have been putting into repairing my own house. So while my colleagues in LA haven't seen me in quite a while, that doesn't accurately reflect the amount of work I have been doing in the bigger picture, and arguably more important and authentic work at that. But all that work has not left much time to ponder the types of things I post on here, which is totally fine with me, at least for the time being. I try to make sure I keep my priorities straight, in light of the bigger picture.
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